reverb 10.17 lesson learned

Lesson Learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward?

I learned how fierce and steadfast I can be when me or my loved ones are threatened.  This has a lot to do with my letting go prompt of this year.  My sister did her best to stress me out towards the end of my pregnancy.  One can say we are not very close.  As it was I never told her I was pregnant and my father chose to not only tell her but tell her the sex of my baby.  In my family my siblings only have daughters so I was nervous about animosity about having a son

Well my sister used an unfortunate situation to get in contact with me for a couple of weeks and in that time she really tried to stress me out.  It worked.  In my 34th week of pregnancy I was still able to walk three miles at a time as the weather warmed up and the swelling and after effects were nothing compared to my swelling and blood pressure after each phone conversation with my sister.  When I noticed that my adema was becoming more pronounced with communication with her and that she was misleading the truth of the unfortunate situation it was easy to know that I needed her to stop calling and stressing me out.

When I told her that she needed to stop she did not take it well at all.  There was little I could do but let go if she could not act in my best interests.

I have no problem being pragmatic… and this was a case of being pragmatic for my son’s health and my own.